Haven't posted in a while, again I know, been really busy with uni work again!
Anyway sort of on track, today was shit- good for eating or lack of it- but shit day in otherways. The reason that I haven't eaten much today is because I'm feeling like shit, which is good in a way.
My ex bf sent me a really nasty message today, calling me a "little slut" and other names that I don't really want on my journal, as one in particular I class as the harshest word that you can call anyone. But anyway, I haven't replyed to the email, and I don't intend to, I wouldn't even know where to start. I hate him so much, but the thing that is getting me so so so down is that he was supposed to be the one person in the world that knows me the most, so surely if he says this horrible stuff to me it must be true?
If it is then, and I'm believing it is, then I am the most horrible person in the world. I don't actually deserve to eat, I need to waste away, become a skeleton. I hate him, but I HATE myself even more.
Sorry for a depressing entry, but i don't really feel like saying anything else.
oh yeah I cut myself yesterday, shit loads of blood but I deservered it.
Also had a blood test today, to see why I'm bruising so much, I'll let you know what happens.